Wednesday, September 6, 2017

#31

her hands probably shook when she
lifted her lightweight life belongings up
onto the shoulder not carrying a 
shivering child, who hasn't eaten since- since.

the trail of feet moves like a slow centipede.
eyes down, keep walking, don't look up,
his instruction is her rosary across the night.
a dog howls in the distance. more join in.

her chant is frenzily feeding her.
walk fast, walk silently. don't look back.
her shoulders grow heavier. she's forgotten
what she'd packed in the last bag she left.

the child stirs. still cold. very.

a decimated people will gather around a fire
tomorrow, trying to rub life into blued limbs.
(i used to be a nurse, a woman with silvery cataracts offers.)
none of them ever learn each other's name.

A few days later, the radio announces
Between news of a new film release and another minister frolicking in another country
A landmine attack. A couple dozen casualties. Refugees. The unwanted. The unseen. 
Their anguish, undeserving of our benevolent generosity, carpeted in a bed of Riverside mud and shrapnel.

If there'd be a God in the sky that night,
He'd probably dim the stars down.
Even the skies know how to mourn-
Even when they mourn the living.

Monday, September 4, 2017

#30: Recommendation letter for a shadow

1.
I doubt you'll ever leave
These serpiginous quarters I've found you.
We're at home, here, safe
In the cement certainty of an odd companionship-
You blow the creamy crust off my
Neglected morning coffee, you
Bring the evening news in (
Voices, even- especially- unfamiliar,
Fill the empty air of my home).

2.
If I could, I would ask
You of your life
And if you were led on as we once were
(My minutes are now mist)
Or if you meander across the pages
Lazily reaching helpful wisps into
Unexpectedly gratified begging hands
Do you let time close its fist around you?
I suspect you've never been tied down.

3.

The wind-whipped arches of our

House are loath to see you go.

The heavy air I exhale keeps you here,

Curled up beside me, days and

Days and daze.

How does one say goodbye?

Sighs hang on dusty cobwebs here,

Shivering in the gentle breeze that will

Someday wash them away.

4.

The past-present-future periscope into my blind eye. Who knows when time even began- maybe on the day I learnt how to ride a bike. (I remember forgetting soon after.) Bitter suns tell us our clock ticks life as we know it must move, merrily-merrily-merrily-merrily. 
Put your shoes on when you leave.

Monday, August 21, 2017

#29: Before I Go

It's the little untruths
That slip over the edge of
Your sunset and begin
The earliest of my morning

Cup of coffee,
Spilling sideways, streaking
Another little pattern over
The old table

Standing there-
You'd never know how
Easy it is to break
Words down into

Silences that creep
Out of the edge of my 
Nightmares, shimmying their
ghastly way 

Up my throat
And down yours.

I'm afraid I have been
The witch and the face 
The mirror told you
Should stay away.

Monday, May 8, 2017

#28: Baiting Bates

Your words
Seep blood into thirsty parchment,
Opening vein after rotten vein
Of dusty stories;

Isn't your jaw aching
Weighed with the heavy staleness
Of all you forgot before it
Could be spokenshruggedoff?

I remember how familiar my
Hand feels wrapped round your throat.

Your eyes glazed over before they rolled
Back, and your back arched in
Such protest of my presence,
I almost felt remorse.

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

#27: Insecur(e)ity

I would put out every
Cigarette i've ever
Smoked on every
Inch of the
Disgusting acreage of the
Whitelined agesigned hide-
Away that holds my
Organs in-
Side out,

If it stopped this
Way my heart
Wishes to tear its
Own trajectory through
And out of me.

Would that let you
Believe how I
Disbelieve?

The folds of my brain
Sink with shame
And my eyes grow
Darker everyday,
Love, how can
Your light
Stand all my
Dust?

Sunday, January 15, 2017

#25: Sappy New Year

I kill my
Interminable time, wondering
If my small love is enough;
Wide enough to traverse the
Distances
You and I often cannot;

Whether it will
Dull and darken and
Wither and wane
And fade in the face of
So many days.

Will my small love
Outlive greater bigger
Stronger brighter
Lights that threaten
To swallow us whole?

Memories threaten to
Be such sickly reminders
Of what's meant more
To you and I, and I
Wish that

You'd have the same
Fears as mine
So maybe they
Could hesitatingly
Outstretch and meet
For a kiss, halfway.