GOODBYE

I didn’t hate it when you said “sorry”
I knew that you were leaving, maybe forever.
I didn’t cry, I shed not a single tear
I couldn’t, my heart was numbed with fear.

Fear, of being unprotected without you
I forgot to tell you, you were the only one for me.
You were everything to me, I had no one else
I thought you knew; now I know you didn’t.

My friends, they have their loves, I’m not the first
My family, they’ve never really cared enough
I had only you, you are always my number one
I thought you had cared for me the same.

Now my friends, they tell me to forget
They tell me I can live without you.
Even you told me that, remember?
You really don’t know me, then.

Because the truth remains- I will always love you.
You’re the reason for my existence.
You’re in every breath that I take
You are the one who made me smile.

That smile is dead forever now.
I thought you would believe me when I said-
“I’ll die without you”
You didn’t know it was true, did you?

Because this is the last poem I’m writing to you
Maybe you will understand now
I really love you, I always will,
But I can’t face the world without you.

I will breathe, if you want me to
I will remain a numbed soul.
Every emotion is dead now
Except the one- I LOVE YOU.

- Radhikaa Sharma

Signs of Life

The first drops of dew glistening on the leaves
As they shimmer and dance in the rays of heavenly light
Flowers, their delicate mien upturned as they capture the divine radiance at dawn
And the gentle morning breeze refreshing the drowsy oaks.

As the sun wakes up from its nocturnal rest
Bringing its feathered friends along, who,
Chirping clear and sweet, greet the day’s commencement.
As animals stretch out, beginning a new beginning.

Laughter all around, the joy of being.
She sits at her window, watching with glazed eyes.
She sees it all, she notices nothing.
She is dead, but she breathes.

She breathes on, her senses unfeeling,
Untouched by the joy around,
She will sit there, see the sun drown at eve,
As life passes by, she is left behind.

- Radhikaa Sharma

The Forgotten "I Love You"

Because you have forgotten,
And I still love you.
Because all those times hold no sense now
And every promise turned untrue.

I remember you promising forever,
‘Forever’ is lost in the distant past.
We tried to cling on to nothingness
Nothingness is the remnant at last.

The mistake of it all lays anonymous
Neither of us recognizes the reason.
Wherein lay the final breakdown
And all the words came undone.

It was supposed to be our love
The elixir to keep us going through
But now I lay, senseless and numb,
What mistake I made, and never knew?

I loved you, and always will.
You may know, may forget, and may not care.
Being yours is my foremost identity
With you, I could lay my heart bare.

Everything’s now lost
But I know I know I can’t change again.
I am going to wait forever
And this forever won’t be in vain.

I’ll count each day,
And number my nights.
And remain yours till the end.
This promise, I promise, won’t break,
This is one vow I vow, not to bend.

The Last Agony

Though I always trusted you
And I always thought you'd be there for me
I didn't expect you to turn away when you saw me cry
And back off when I was beseeching your mercy
Too much trust existed-
But it wasn't two-sided
I believed you- you betrayed me
And now

After I have dried my tears
And the wounds healed
The scars fade out with time
And though I know I still need you
I promise you won't ever know
You are happy the way you are
And I don't want to take away your peace
But just one last time, I beg of you
Turn back: I am still standing where you left me
And hoping against hope-"You will come back, won't you?"
I cry into the dark- I get no answer back.

Yet, i want you to look around your shoulder
Whence you have gone forever
Look back, pity me once
And believe me,I will be satisfied........

The Neverending Wait

Oh! It feels like hell,
Like I can't stop sinking down.
You knew, you knew how I fell,
In the circus of life, you made me the clown.

Oh! It feels like I am here
Deteriorating into nothingness each moment:
I need you close, I want you near,
But you never knew what I actually meant.

Oh! It feels like I am almost dead,
With a flutter of breath only you can revive.
But you never heard what I said,
You can never really turn me alive.

I stand here, with my arms outstretched to you,
If you don't catch me, I really can't stop.
But you, you never really had a clue,
I know you'll just let me drop.

I wait so long, so much,
For his dreadful curse to lift.
I wait for your healing touch, But you just let me drift.

I am screaming out for my life-
You just don't seem to know.
This cut of emotions slices me,
But emotions, you have none to show.

We are so close, yet miles apart,
You've suddenly gone so far away.
You metamorphosed, you lost your heart,
And yet, I want you to stay.

What we shared was so true,
But now it seems to be ages back.
You are stillwith me, I am still here,
But there's a certain something we lack.

You don't notice, you don't care,
What is happening, you just don't see.
You give me a listless stare,
And I know you look straight through me.

It's gone forever now,
It's been just a bit too late.
Can't tell till when, don't know why,
But I'm waiting a never-ending wait