The Forgotten "I Love You"

Because you have forgotten,
And I still love you.
Because all those times hold no sense now
And every promise turned untrue.

I remember you promising forever,
‘Forever’ is lost in the distant past.
We tried to cling on to nothingness
Nothingness is the remnant at last.

The mistake of it all lays anonymous
Neither of us recognizes the reason.
Wherein lay the final breakdown
And all the words came undone.

It was supposed to be our love
The elixir to keep us going through
But now I lay, senseless and numb,
What mistake I made, and never knew?

I loved you, and always will.
You may know, may forget, and may not care.
Being yours is my foremost identity
With you, I could lay my heart bare.

Everything’s now lost
But I know I know I can’t change again.
I am going to wait forever
And this forever won’t be in vain.

I’ll count each day,
And number my nights.
And remain yours till the end.
This promise, I promise, won’t break,
This is one vow I vow, not to bend.

I Will Be Right Here

The day that I first saw you
Is still fresh in my mind,
Still remember that first time,
I set my eyes on you.

I did feel a certain flutter,
And maybe you did too
But I didn’t really give a second look,
Never knew it could be so true.

Looked at you out of the corner of my eye
And maybe you too gave me a glance.
Tried to talk, gave it a try,
But Providence never showed a chance.

Stumbled, fell, and tripped all the way,
No one cared, as I delved in the deep dark.
I stopped trying to make myself say
To you, the way you’d make me spark.

I gave life a chance, more than once.
Never really got what I wanted.
Just looked at the rising and drowning suns,
As life passed by, and I was left behind.

I played the fool, and I knew I did.
Now I know you saw me blunder.
But that time I was too blind to see,
And to the buzz of life, I had to surrender.

Guess I never had the chance to look back,
And see if you were there for me.
I was dead, life was black,
All my emotions were at sea.

I returned to where I’d started from,
And life was just a dead standstill.
My conscience still raged an inner storm,
Every breath seemed to kill.

And then one day- I don’t recall when
We hesitantly said “Hello”
You entered and decorated my life then
The sweet melody of life, began to flow.

It was more than just the ordinary,
You made me feel oh! So free,
And I really began to believe in love,
Thanked all the heavens above.

What I had needed were you,
But still obligations held me tied.
And I just didn’t know what to do,
Felt so incapable of anything anymore.

Love won over all else,
And now I’m there, just for you.
Now I know all the time I’d lost, when
“You and me” just wouldn’t do.

But now that I’m here
There’s this one thing I promise
I’m standing right by you, my dear
And together is our world of forever bliss.

You gave me courage, made me strong
You’re the reason I’m holding on
I know you’re there, be I right or wrong,
My pains have lessened, if not gone.

The sweet nothings we talk for hours
Make me live life, all day through
The way we murmur “I love you” empowers
My heart and soul- divine and true.

The days seem to stretch into years
And each second ticks, just so long.
Your love helps me face my fears
Gives me hope, make me strong.

I’ll be right here, all the way
I promise I’ll never take back my word.
Living life with you, a smile a day
I know that my oaths, you have heard.

I trust you, and always will,
And pray for us to last on and on.
I’ll be with you, valley and hill,
Our love will last, long after we are gone.

- Radhikaa Sharmaa

Your Presence

Your shadow falling on the space beside me
As you take the steps to be at my side
To tell me how much you care
To make me smile whenever I cried.

Your hands, holding mine,
As we walk on a cold dark night
But I feel strangely warm inside
Looking at my reflection in your eye’s light.

Your smile, pleasant and soft,
Filling my heart with a wonderful peace
As I pray and wish to the Lord,
Let him always be with me, please.

Your eyes, reflecting the love I have in mine
As they look towards me and caress my soul
As they look at me and into me
I know that’s how my heart you stole.

I count on your presence a lot
More than you will ever be able to know
Your being here and being for me
Is what makes my life each day glow.

Stay here, forever and a day
We may even fight, but please just stay.
You are the only need in this life of mine,
You are the star making my world shine.

- Radhikaa Sharmaa

That's When It's Love

Love is when "you and i" becomes "we"
Love is when nothing else on earth matters, other than your love
Love is when i start smiling suddenly for no reason at all
Love is when I know you'll never let me fall
Love is when your voice resounds in my mind
Love is when i wait for your smile to make my day
Love is when i whisper "I love you" into the dark night
Love is when everything is wrong but life feels right
Love is when i know i'll stand by you through all the odds
Love is when i know you'll be the one forever- and after
Love is when days and hours stop having sense
Love is when I'm with you, despite the distance
Love is when the senseless words mean the world to me
Love is when dreamland is the perfect place to be
Love is when i can think of you and forget the the rest
Love is when you were, are, and will be the best

Love is the craziness in my heart
Love is the joy of a new start
Love is the light of hope you mean
Love is the reason for the meadows all green

I don't know much,
But swear to the Heavens above
There's no feeling as such
Than knowing you are in love...

The Last Agony

Though I always trusted you
And I always thought you'd be there for me
I didn't expect you to turn away when you saw me cry
And back off when I was beseeching your mercy
Too much trust existed-
But it wasn't two-sided
I believed you- you betrayed me
And now

After I have dried my tears
And the wounds healed
The scars fade out with time
And though I know I still need you
I promise you won't ever know
You are happy the way you are
And I don't want to take away your peace
But just one last time, I beg of you
Turn back: I am still standing where you left me
And hoping against hope-"You will come back, won't you?"
I cry into the dark- I get no answer back.

Yet, i want you to look around your shoulder
Whence you have gone forever
Look back, pity me once
And believe me,I will be satisfied........

On The Point Of No Return

Lookin back now,
At the long days and nights.
At the end of the road, I turn back
To look at the now-fading sights.

The start was but natural; the end, inevitable.
Good things come to an end, but so do the bad.
The twisted journey blissfully ends,
The termination is redemption of the burdens I have.

The soul reaches out, embraces death.
Eagerly awaiting the end of endless strife.
The body, cursed to survival instinct,
Damns me back, again to life.

There I was, standing in a no-man's land,
Stranded between life and death.
The body wants one, the soul craves the other,
Confused, I creep back with guilty stealth.

The harsh reality of life came crashing back,
Cruelly awakening me from the dreams of bliss.
In the world of the abstract, I had forgotten
How determination fell, how I found no way to face this.

The body is weary, it's given up.
The mind stales and stagnates.
The soul, freed of pain, joyously
Goes through the beckoning gates.

Yet, I have lost a lot on the way.
Freedom always has a price to pay.
Death is freedom, but freedom is dead:
An eternally devoid feeling, here to stay.

Freedom gives, but takes a lot too;
You are unfeeling, yet bleed and burn.
You wait forever, for a miracle to come by,
But death- it is a point of no return.

Radhikaa Sharma

On The Darker Side... Darkly

Thinking of the many facets of life each day,
Profoundly shallow, bewilderingly simple.

Thinking of emotions torn, of dreams shattered,
Of the incessant feelings repressed.

Thinking about the ever-transforming human nature:
Ever-adjusting, ever-adapting.

Thinking of that unshakeable instinct to survive,
To bend with the wind, but not to break.

Thinking of the strength to ride out every storm,
To smother the cry of tribulation with a joyous memory.

Thinking of the many unwept tears-
Of the heartache veiled by the deceptive smile.

Thinking of the detached examination of old sentiment,
Of the pain and anguish, dulled by time.

Thinking of the now-dead screams from hell,
Of the terror of the unknown, the fear of the dogging shadow.

Thinking of the people from the past:the ghosts of today
Of the long walks down the memory lane.

Thinking of estranged psyche nudging the mind,
Of the conscience tugging at the prudence of the intellect.

Thinking of the unthought-of crimes later regretted,
Of the small things savoured, the little joys treasured.

Thinking of the unworldly happening amidst the mundane,
Of the moments of tranquility enveloped in chaos.

Thinking of the last-minute yet life-lasting decisions,
Of the other possibilities on the greener side.

Thinking of people lost, of relations squandered,
Of the long colloquies, renewed in remembrance.

Thinking of the satisfaction in banal repletion,
Of the routine, grateful to be shattered by the extraordinary.

Thinking of the betrayal of the second self,
Of the disloyalty bred in inner reliance.

Thinking of the thwart of belief and trust,
Of the outright revelations of gross human infidelity.

Thinking of the sweet taste of revenge,
Of the inhuman satisfaction in human cruelty.

Thinking of the joy of loneliness,
Of the desperate run to desolation.

Thinking of the dwindling of desire to acceptance:
Acceptance of situation, born out of habit.

Thinking of the sudden spurt of rebel of heart,
Of the will to change the way, to lead to the light.

Thinking of the lastingly lucid warmth of love,
Of the charm of the smiling silence.


Thinking of the many facets of life each day,
Of living the truly eternal lie.
Thinking of the many manifestations of the soul,
Of life on the darker side...... darkly.